I breathe weariness
unwillingly inhaling my own toxicity
and invite insomnia inside
where my mind is shapeless static
pulling me under
plunging me into abject horror,
relinquishing faked sanity
for the quiet.
Let the sob slip out out out out out
from under my shame.
Let my lungs heave heave heave
breathe breath breath Breathe
and then out.
that I’ll never be quite as sane;
having seen this senseless battle
wreck havoc over and over and over again,